Author: Leighton Riley
Release Date: Oct 16, 2014
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How do you heal after everything has been ripped away from you?
Completely devastated and alone, Tristen cannot fathom life after losing Cami and his unborn child. He attempts to find normality in his broken world but everything seems wrong.
Aria is compelled to help Tristen and cannot escape the undeniable connection she feels for him, even though Cami was one of her closest friends. She tries to help him move forward by befriending him but quickly realizes that there is more.
Tristen and Aria are both struggling to deal with these confusing emotions. Can they find happiness even when they feel utterly broken?
“Sometimes in the waves of change, we find our true direction.” (loved this quote)
I love the characters of this story they are real down to earth, relatable, have huge hearts and have real issues that are dealt with in a very real manner.
Ryder, Cami and Tristan were inseparable, lived to surf and loved to surf. They were the best of friends. Tristan and Cami had an amazing connection that was more than just friendship but before they could announce it to the world, a tragedy happened that rocked their world.
After Cami went missing, Tristan just couldn’t pull himself back together. Not only was he mourning the loss of a friend, but also of his true love and unborn child. The hardest part of his time of grief was not being able to share all of his emotions, and the total depth of his loss with anyone else since their connection (Tristan and Cami) was a secret prior to her death.
Aria came into the picture during the memorial service for Cami. Aria was an old friend of Cami’s they had been close friends. Aria introduced herself to Tristan, even though he wasn’t looking for someone to talk to, he found it in Aria. They became a sounding board for each other on tough days. It was a nice relationship, but even friendships can have bumps in the roads and blurred lines at times.
I loved having more of Ryder and Payton in the story. I always enjoy reading books that share characters where their lives intertwine.
This book was an amazing read; it had some pretty heavy material in regards to loss and grief. Examples how all people deal with grief in their own way, but with a message that holding al the grief in and not sharing it only gets you in a worse place in the end. It can pull you down, isolate you and change the person that you are. Tristan and Aria both learned this lesson the hard way.
This book took me for a ride and I was hooked from the first chapter. I had many times in the book that Leighton Riley managed to truly shock me with the turns of the story. I wish that I could give this book more than 5 Stars because it definitely has earned it. I hope there will be more to come with this group of friends/family in the future, because I am not ready to be done with them.
Cami loved being on the beach, even though the sand got everywhere. It was like her second home and she needed the sand and waves just as much as she needed oxygen to breathe.
Once I got to the beach, I collapsed on the sand in the same spot we always claimed and let all my emotions go. For it being in the middle of the day, there weren’t many people out today. The weather was supposed to worsen within the next few hours and the dark clouds were already starting to move in, making it fitting for how I felt. My life had turned into this dark storm that wanted to swallow me whole. I knew I had to fight but it felt like I was facing a fifty foot tsunami with nowhere to take shelter. My heart had been ripped out that day in the ocean and there was a gray veil looming over my life.
I don’t know how long I stayed on there but the next time I opened my eyes, the sun was gone and the wind had picked up. The waves were wicked and the sand was being picked up from the gusts of wind. The area was deserted by then and it felt good knowing that I was truly alone out here. I felt this weird sense of peace when I finally let go and thought about how Cami and our baby were both looking down on me now. I needed her strength to get me through this nightmare.
My heart hurt and I felt defeated. The ocean had won. I hated the damn ocean now. Hearing the roar of the waves crashing used to sooth me, now it revolted me. I was lost. Cami and the ocean were my two loves and now both were torn away. I just wanted to feel her skin against me again, to feel her comfort now, when I needed it the most.
Consumed in my thoughts of my old life, I was startled when I heard movement within the sand behind me. I didn’t think much of it until I saw a woman around my age sit down next to me.
“You feel her here too?” The girl questioned while peering out into the worsening weather conditions. The water was choppy and turbulent. She was wearing a yellow tank top and white shorts. She held her flip flops in her hands and set them down in front of us.
Who is this chick?
I wanted to be alone. When I was alone, I was able to concentrate on the memories of the love of my life. Having someone out on the beach with me felt like betrayal and I needed an escape. There was an awkward silence that hung in the air. I thought about not answering her and waiting for her to get the hint and leave. After what felt like hours, I finally gave in and told her just enough to not ask any more questions.
– The birth date on the gravestone is my actual date of birth 😉
– I try to include names from my street team and readers in my books. (Rebecca, Elixix, Tami, Cassia were all from them in Regretfully)
– Tristen got his name from a good friend of mine. She was with me in the beginning of my writing process and her boyfriend’s name was Tristen and I fell in love with the name.
– I saw Cirque Du Soleil’s Zumanity and one of the performers had his nipples pierced. I was sold and knew Tristen would be getting them. 😀
– I was able to relate to Tristen in some ways regarding Cami’s death. A boyfriend of mine was taken from this world too soon and I drew from those memories.
– Gloria’s is my favorite Latin restaurant and I had to include it in the book. The one I go to is in Dallas though.
– Aria’s flashback (you’ll know which one I’m talking about, hint- alcohol) was tough for me to write. I spent weeks on it, making sure it was accurate and written in a respectable manner. That’s one scene I don’t go back and reread very much, but it’s often on my mind.
Texas born and raised, I found my love for dirty books rather recently. I work in real estate for my day job and I write contemporary romance with a twist of suspense and erotica. Sinfully, Regretfully, and Deceitfully can be read in order or as standalones. Sinfully and Regretfully take place around the same time frame and can even be read in reverse order (will give more background on Payton and Ryder’s story). Tate’s story, Deceitfully, will finish off the series and will be out in spring of 2015.